2020 sure has been a year. It is certainly I year I won't ever forget.
The day after my book Heal was released (3/20/2020), my fiance, Michael passed away from a heart attack and heart defect. His aorta tore while we were in Costco, shopping for the grandkids, and he came out of the dairy section clutching his chest. He passed away hours later.
I lost the love of my life in moments.
I lost my home a month later because we were 2 weeks from our wedding date. His only son took everything, including some of my belongings and my kids' belongings.
I know I'm not alone. 2020 has been unkind to many people across the globe.
Starting over is scary. Starting over in the middle of a worldwide pandemic leaves me without words of how to describe what the past 6 months have been like.
All is beginning to even out and things are coming back to normal. I have some certificates to get out. Thank you all so much for being patient while I find my feet in the tragedy my life succumbed to this past year. Some people couldn't find their patience and for those people, I hope kindness and forgiveness comes to them easier than what they allow themselves to gift others.
My message for you all: find kindness in your daily life. There is so much loss and devastation in our world right now. Find forgiveness, and make kindness your source to draw from in the coming months. I have a feeling we are far from anything being stable, for quite some time yet to come.
Here's to you Michael.
May you rest, peacefully, and may my grief of losing you not swallow me whole.